1-14-09

I have been reading a book about a woman whose sister died. I think this was the inspiration for the dream I had last night.

My brother died and I had to go take care of his things. It was a large room with an upper level and there were posters on the wall. I wanted some specific ones to keep but someone had already taken them. Heather and Kerwin were there and I was picking on her about her and Kerwin's last names and she said I wanted Kerwin's so why was I picking on them. I said I was just upset about my brother and started crying.

1-12-09

It was a restless night and I awoke several times. I spent the afternoon with a friend who is working with her dreams so this may have been a catalist for my sudden vivid dreams. 

1. Looked like the commercial for the "Notorious" movie coming out soon.

2. I was at home, but I was Konur and Mali's grandmother, not their mother. They were living with me and their mom was a non-descript person who I apparently had a good relationship with. She decided it was time for them to all move out and was taking them to a new home. I was devistated and asked who would comfort Mali when she cried? She assured me it was time for them to go and I helped her pack and I sobbed. 

I felt helpless and alone. 

3. We were at a pagan gathering in a forest and Dean and the girls were there among other people. We decided it was time to have the ritual, so Ron, me and some other man,  walked around looking for a good spot. We left Konur and Mali to be tended by the other people. Emily was there and pregnant and everyone was touching her belly. We went down by a river and decided to the mosquitoes were really bad so covered ourselves in muck to keep them away. Someone ran down the hill to the river and said there is a fight going on, we needed to come fast, that another pagan group was there and trying to take over our  area. Ron and the other guy ran up the hill and I followed. One of our friends was running away from the fight and I told him to get back in there. He said he had already been arrested for assault and I said I understood. By the time we got there, the fight was over and the kids were fine. Dean and the girls had rented trailers for the weekend and I went in one alone just to relax and wind down. 

Last night was very restless and I woke about once an hour.